Let Me Go...

See those tears?
Wipe those tears!
You're making me laugh
Crying after all of these years.
Get up off your knees
It's too late for this nonsense now
You look silly when you beg
Taking you back, I wouldn't know how.
Stop searching for a reason
Some things just aren't meant to be
It's time to start a new chapter
Let me remain just a memory.
Allow yourself to find new happiness
From this experience you can grow
Not everything can last forever
But this you weren't to know.
By holding on, you suffocate both of us
I need for you to let go
Come now, it's time for us both to breathe
To somebody else, you have lots of love to show.
I'm not going to play this game any more
It's not fun for me or for you
After all of this time, I am so worn out
I don't know what else to do.
So please go now, away
Far away from me
My time is no longer yours to share
It's time you set me free.


Written by Jeska Brewster on 25.08.2010 (c)

In The Silence

Silence. Not a noise surrounding my ears.
I could hear a pin drop.
Not even my breathing makes a sound.
I love the dark. It excites me.
Eyes closed. Waiting. Dreaming.
Musical notes float in my mind.
No sound comes from them.
I enjoy the peace and quiet.
For once in my life, the noise is switched off.
It is lovely.
It is devine.
Nothing should interrupt this beautiful moment.
I can't imagine anything sweeter than this moment right now.
I dance in the dark.
In the silence.
I don't hear a tune. Nor do I want to.
The first time I can freely dance to nothingness.
It's as though there are no mouths for words to escape from.
No need to yell "BE QUIET!".
What a liberating feeling to not hear voices surrounding me.
Too many people talk without having anything to say.
All I need is a little time to soak up this moment.
No need for it to last forever. Only for now.
I shall enjoy the silence while it lasts.

Written by Jeska Brewster on 19.8.2010 (c)

Let Us Mourn

Here one minute

Gone the next
Time passes by so quickly
This life is not ours
It can be taken from us at any moment
We cry
We mourn
We remember
Tears fall and hearts bleed
Loved ones left behind
Picking up the pieces
Memories remain forever
We hurt
We question
We wonder
Looking to the skies
Trying to find the answers
Does a soul survive?
What happens in the afterlife?
Praying a soul is safe at rest
Hoping for an eternity of peace
We hope
We pray
We believe
A spirit remains forever
Life is too short for bitterness
Its important to remember
Never forget what is true
A lesson learnt from those whose time has past

Written by Jeska Brewster on 17.8.2010 (c)

Where For Art Thou Romeo?

I stand in a field alone

While the wind blows against my skin
I yell loudly into the skies
"Where for art thou Romeo?"
Surely he can't be far?
Is there something I have missed?

I stand in a field alone
While the grass slaps against my feet
As the clouds are gathering I ask
"Where for art thou Romeo?"
I have to cross paths with him soon surely?
Have my eyes been closed this whole time?

I stand in a field alone
While the air feels warm against my body
I shout to the universe
"Where for art thou Romeo?"
Is he hiding in the distance?
Will he reveal himself to me soon?

I stand in a field alone
While my heart grows hungry and eager
I demand of the skies
"Bring me my Romeo!"
How much longer shall I have to wait?
Will I have to wait forever?

I stand in a field alone
While the wind softly replies
"Romeo is coming, be patient my child!"

I stand in a field alone
While I have been made to realise
My Romeo is worth the wait!
I shall not allow my heart to grow tired.
He shall appear in my life when I least expect it.

I stand in a field alone
While everything becomes clearer
I yell to the skies so Romeo can hear
"I'm ready when you are! Reveal yourself to me whenever you need"

Written by Jeska Brewster on 13.8.2010 (c)

Alone With My Guitar

What is it exactly that you want to hear?
That I lock myself in my room and clumsily play my guitar?
While I sing a series of songs that remind me of you?
If this is what you're wanting to know then yes, it's true.
That my hair is messy and I haven't slept properly in days?
My eyes are sore from the salty tears I've been crying?
My nailpolish is chipped and my head is in a spin?
Then yes, it's true - and now I'm too afraid to let anyone else in.
I don't understand how everything could change in the blink of an eye.
You were here one day, and gone the next.
What is it exactly you hoped to gain?
Why did you blame it on me when you were the one who pushed me away?
Do you want me to admit how much I miss you?
Are you wanting me to confess I secretly fell head over heels?
Would it make you happy to know this hurts more than it should?
If I could find the courage to say it to your face then of course I would!
My guitar plays a lonely tune, as if the strings are broken.
A little like my heart.
Would you like me to vanish and pretend I was never there?
Your response to my questions are as if you never cared.
Do you wish that I would cry in front of you instead of in my room?
Would you like me to beg you like a slave on their knees?
Would you like to actually hear my lonely song?
I can't allow you to come back inside, because my healing takes too long.
No more questions now because this is the final chapter in our tale.
Privately, my guitar and I will walk alone.
A silent song without you, not revealing to you how I really feel.
Little will you actually admit, you were never the "real deal".


Written by Jeska Brewster on 10.8.2010 (c)

Yesterday, Tonight, Tomorrow

Yesterday, I went to sleep with a kiss.
Yesterday, I didn't sleep alone.
Yesterday, I was locked up safe and tight in somebody's arms.
Yesterday, I slept better than I've slept before.


Tonight, I go to sleep without a kiss.
Tonight, I go to sleep alone.
Tonight, I am not locked up safe and tight in somebody's arms.
Tonight, I am not sure I will be able to sleep.


Tomorrow, I wake up without a kiss.
Tomorrow, I wake up alone.
Tomorrow, I won't be locked up safe and tight in somebody's arms.
Tomorrow, I hope I can sleep.




Written by Jeska Brewster on 5.8.2010 (c)

Dance To Forget You

I listen to the beat of the music
I love to swing my hips
The music is taking over
I close my eyes and see your face
I dance to escape the thought of you
No more tears shall fall
My friends tell me they think I love you
I refuse to accept or listen
I let the tune take over
Repeating inside my head
Forgetting you isn't all that easy
But I will die trying
I want the rain to fall as the music plays
I will dance wet
Trying to forget about what we shared
The beat is now my friend
You are nothing now but a memory
I shall sleep inside the music
Since I can't sleep next to you
No longer can I taste your lips
So I eat the flavour of the music
I want it to be sweet like you
I dance to forget you
I will dance for a lifetime if I have to
The music pulsates in my veins
Maybe I do love you
Something I won't ever let you know
I belong to the music now
I dance to forget you

Written by Jeska Brewster on 5.8.2010 (c)

Naked In The Night

I want to be naked with you.

Under a tree, in the night sky.
I want the moon to reflect off our naked bodies.
I want the stars to shine bright, just for us.
As the cool breeze touches our bodies, I want to kiss you.
I want your body to be pressed hard against mine.
Time shall pass ever so slowly, waiting for us.
Colours shall ignite the night sky, like a million galaxies exploding at once.
The grass will softly touch our bare feet.
In the distance, wolves will howl.

I want to be naked with you.
Under a tree, in the night sky.
I want the world to disappear so it's just you and me.
I want there to be sparks flying from our bodies.
As our embrace creates electricity in the world.
I want nature's essence to roam around in our bodies.
Our thoughts and feelings, merging into one.
The universe will bow at our feet because everything is beautiful and perfect.
The earth will become our playground.
Together, as one, naked in the night.

Written by Jeska Brewster on 4.8.2010 (c)