Our Energy

When you look at me, I can tell you want me. You're simply telling me with your eyes. Our gaze isn't broken, in fact - it's held for quite some time. Each second makes you want more.

It's because my eyes are linked to my honest soul, and you're captivated by the truth my heart is telling you.

You're smile is suggesting that I make you forget about everything, and we are the only two people here at this time. The way your lips are pressed together convey a burning passion, one you want to show me more than anything you have ever wanted in your whole life.

I see you sitting there and I know you are thinking about us. You want to try this new and exciting energy you feel from me because you know my flame is burning for you, and only you!

You look at me and you think I don't notice, but I feel every moment of your presence. You give me a glimpse into what lust is all about - and in our case, wanting something you can't have. Right now it's not our time, but we both know what we feel, and we both sit and wonder if one day we can act upon those feelings.

When you look at me, we are having a conversation without words - our energy is speaking for us.

Everything happens for a reason. You met me for a reason. Right now, until we know what that reason is, we enjoy the chemistry between us, and the passion we share.

Just know one thing - I want you as much as I know you want me!

Written by Jeska Brewster on 23/4/2010 (c)

Delete Me

So I'm just a deleted memory
That's all I am to you
I'm literally forgotten
Love faded instead of grew.

You've taken down the photos
You forget the love we built
You've pushed our time aside
Without feeling any guilt.

You never reminisce
While I think about the past
You forget how much I meant to you
Our love was supposed to last.

Go ahead, delete me
Delete me from your heart
Pretend I never mattered
But you cant erase the past.

Go ahead, delete me
Delete me from your mind
Pretend I don't exist anymore
While I'm stuck here in my bind.



Written by Jeska Brewster on 14.4.2010 (c)

Rapid Thoughts

I sit at home procrastinating about many things. My heart is heavy and my eyes are swollen.

I don't know where I belong.

I feel emotional and vulnerable, and for some reason, alone.

There are people all around me. People who are my friends, my family, my acquaintances. Yet I feel invisible to the world.

Where has the peace in my heart gone?

For a second there, I thought everything would be OK. I thought that my heart was content.

My mind has never been so confused, my thoughts never so twisted, my voice never as silent.

I feel I am here, but just hovering above myself.

Watching as the world revolves around me, everyone so preoccupied.

I am alive but barley breathing.

This heart of mine feels troubled, slightly tortured, mostly helpless.

I try to unravel my thoughts, making sense of them - but in reality, my subconscious won't allow me to.

I'm not sure I really want to know, because I am scared of what I may discover.

This life I live, isn't mine anymore. Nobody seems to understand me.

The universe has my hand, and society strips me of believing I am normal.

What is normal?

Where am I?

What is this life I used to know?

Written by Jeska Brewster on 9.4.2010 (c)