You Envelope Me

You captivate me.

You challenge me. You excite me. You surprise me. You intrigue me.

You satisfy me. You touch me.

You inspire me. You motivate me. You encourage me. You support me.

You hear me. You hold me. You calm me. You soothe me.

You help me. You advise me. You teach me. You guide me.

You envelope me. With everything you are, and everything you have - you envelope me.

Written by Jeska Brewster on 29.7.2010 (c)

Onto The Page

Onto the page I write
Through the ink I bleed
Thoughts planted in my mind
Writing is my seed.
Spinning world is revolving
Around and around it goes
What flows onto the page next
Only God above shall know.
Secrets are revealed
Many thoughts are shared out loud
Writing for many reasons
One is to make you proud.
My words are full of emotion
They give my poems some life
I've stolen them from my heart
So before you here I write.
I can't seem to stop the pen
I've simply got too much to say
If you like what you're reading
Feel free to walk away.
I will never stop writing.

Written by Jeska Brewster on 13.7.2010 (c)

Conversation With God

God, I wish things were different. Less complicated. I wish it was easier for me to sleep, eat and breathe. Also God, I wish I had the strength to open my heart and see my worth. Yet there is something inside of me which has a hold of me and won't release me.

I feel as though you have forsaken me God. I look up to the heavens and shout your name, asking you to reveal yourself to me but I feel nothing. Where are you Lord? Why have you forsaken me? How can you help me? I feel as though I am asking questions there are no answers to.

You work in mysterious ways Lord, yet I am not sure you have given me the strength to be patient. I need strength. I need will power. I need faith and I need hope. All of these things, I doubt I possess. I have no solution and I feel nobody understands what I am going through.

Please Lord, come back into my life and help me through because this is the time when I need you the most. This life isn't mine so I am giving it it you. My burden now belongs to you. Please be the way, truth like you said you said you would. Reveal yourself to me, Oh Lord.


Written by Jeska Brewster on 20.7.2010 (c)

Naked For You

I've taken my clothes off

I'm waiting for you to get home
The candles are lit
We'll be all alone.
My nails are painted
Champagne is on ice
A bubble bath is ready
I've cooked your favorite meal with rice.
My lip-gloss is shiny
Skin is silky smooth
Everything is perfect
I want you in the mood.
Soft music is in the background
A gorgeous aroma in the air
I want you to be inside of me
As you gently tug on my hair.

I hear you unlock the door
Excitement inside of me grows

I get ready on the lounge
I can't seem to feel my toes.
You take one look at me
I can see it in your eyes
You're ready to pounce on top of me
You totally love this surprise.
Now you've come even closer
There is now right here
You take me in your arms
You nibble on my ear.
Our energies are flowing
We both want the very same thing
You're my deepest desire
Tonight...you are my King.

Written by Jeska Brewster on 1.7.2010 (c)

Mother

Many excuses for years and years, broken promises and an ocean of tears.

Over the years things were meant to change, nothing happened - they remained the same.

Things in your life went from bad to worse, it's like you've been affected by some evil curse.

Hoping you'd be the person that I'd look up to, instead the hurt and shame about you inside of me grew.

Everyday I wonder when I'll get the call, that you've gone too far and you're not alive anymore.

Realising you'll never really get your act together, you don't deserve my love - not now, not ever!


Written by Jeska Brewster on 1.7.2010 (c)